jia you

"JIA YOU"I tell myself so that i can continue to struggle in my lesson.Try my best is the only thing i can do.Don't give up easily.

Tired..............

In my life,i always think that if i try my best ,i can do it.Even though i am not a clever and excellent student, and of course i will face failure in the academic field occasionally but i know i still can face and solve it.However,when i face my family problem,my parents like to quarel because of financial problem or their own problem,my brain will become blank and can't pick up myself to face it.

I did a big mistakes again

I want to say:'sorry'.I really not a good friend.I always tell myself that i must think twice before i take the action.But,i did a big mistakes again todays.Starting from secondary school,i hate myself.I keep asking myself :'why?Why i am a useless person?Anything i do is totally wrong'.I should say nothing i have done is correct or brings benefit to people surrounding me.I really have tried my best to be a kind and good person but what i have done didn't change anything but make situation become worsen only.Sometimes i hope i am a very stupid person and hence make ends met in the future by contribute my physical energy to earn money.At least,for me,they are pure and kind people.They earn money and lead their lives by contributing their energy.And me ,i am a useless person.Even though my parents have spend a lot of money for me,they hope i can be a useful person in the future.They don't even know actually their daughter is a useless and stupid person.'Sorry ,mom,dad, and friends.'

feeling

Everytime my parents quarrel, i will feel i am going to give up everything,including my lesson.I don't know why i am so weak.I received a mail from my friend.It is about a fact that happened in other country.A photo shows that a bird is waiting for the death of a kid so that it can eat the kid.Maybe the photo is not a fact but the kid is really very thin and their life is very tough and make me feel sad on them.I always realize that we are very lucky.However , i always easy to feel sad.That makes me feel like i am an useless person.I am trying to improve myself too.I really hope i can be a tough person.

unfair

I accepted my result two days ago.I passed the exam with satisfied result.However , i know all of our result is not dependent of our real ability but depend on the overall graph.That means i can get satisfied result is not because i can do the question but majority of student can't answer the question too.Hence,i also very disappointed with my result but GOD give me the chance to go ahead.Then,i will maintain my effort and even spend my time wisely without wasting the time i left.I feel unfair because my friends have tried their best in the exam but they can't get the result they wanted.Even though they had studied hard,they can't achieve it.Hence,i think luck is neccessary for us to achieve our goals.Sometime,we should not too concern on our result because excellent result doesn't mean we are success in our life but other aspect such as EQ,communication skill and other skills.However,the concepts of many people about success is excellent in exam.

..................................................

Actually i don't know what i want to write in my blogs now.But i am very worry.What i am worry about?My first semester will be come out soon,that is on next tuesday.How i face my result?Even though i know that it is a fact and i need to accept it in any condition.Besides that,i tell myself that i have tried before and this is my result.I can't change it.But when i think about my parents,i will feel so sorry to them because they hope i can get flying colour in exam.They also say they don't mind if i can't get excellent result but i know if i can't get excellent result,i am not a filial daughter.My dad called me just now.He asks me to study and don't worry about him.That is why i feel so sorry to my parents.They always work hard to earn more money to make ends meet.But what i can reply them is just a bad news to them because i can't get excellent result.I really don't have courage to meet them if i go home later.I know my friends also face such kind of problems,and my problem is just a small problem.I always advice my friends don't be too nervous about their result because you have try your best.Let bygones be bygones.

Time is not enough for me

Everyone has 24 hours per day.Why my time is not enough for me to prepare myself in every subject?I understand why time is not enough for me.This is because i can't finish homework or assignment efficiently in a short period of time.What should i do to improve my studying skill?I really sad with my studying skill because i always can't finish my target and arrange my time wisely.Time passed very fast and i already have studied at kmph for half of a year.After four months later,i can leave kmph and continue to study in university.Sometimes,i have studied at hostel until i feel so boring.However,i know i just study at here for almost half a year,i need to continue my lesson in university for at least three years.How could i adapt myself in such a strange place and make friend with others?It is a challenge for me to achieve my target at kmph before i can study in university.My first semester result will come out soon and i know i need to ready myself to accept all of the possibility.My parents are waiting for me to tell them my result but i tell them first that don't be too coonfident in my result because i know my level.