放手???

我知道我没准备好,而且还可能不适合。。。

遗失了自我

以前的我，对人事物都抱着不理会的状态，也不会深入地去探讨他人的行为与思想，又或许我身边的每位朋友都那么地亲切与友善。但自从进了大学以后，认识了不少人，她让我去评估每个人的自私行为，但她却能接受他人，或许她很大量，又或许她也是其中的一个，为了利益关系，她选择无视。渐渐地，我变得越来越无法体会为什么人人都那么地自私，一切都只为自己想。但我的另一位朋友却说：“你有道德是Bonus point 但你自私却不会让你的人格贬低。” 人人都有缺点，我知道。现在的我也不再去在意或所谓的“多管闲事”，但依然我还在学着如何让一切随风飘走。我不喜欢麻烦人，除非真的没有其他选择，又或者真的不会麻烦到他人。所以我常常以我的这个坚持去看待每件事，但说真的我是笨蛋，因为当我不想麻烦他人的同时，却一定有人会麻烦我，或要求我为他人做些什么，那么他们就可以轻松过日子。真的想要过自己想要的生活，不想做一些麻烦自己的事，不想为了‘友谊’ 而被约束，只想不要有任何干扰。但我的一位朋友却说：‘ 人人都有他人的思想，当他人拜托你做些什么时，你就当作为了所谓的友谊而帮他咯，这样对你也好’。但真正的友谊对我来说是不会造成对方生活上的不便，但当你真正需要他时，他会给予你所真正的帮助。我真的迷失了自己，觉得自己想法很极端，但却无法不当那些我认为干扰我生活的因素为一回事。

学习这件事，不是缺乏时间，而是缺乏努力。

刚刚我男朋友在面子书上分享了一则关于凌晨四点多的哈佛大学图书馆里,灯火通明,座无虚席的情 景。看了那篇文章之后，心中满是惭愧，他们的学习态度让我钦佩与学习。在哈佛，教授们会时常提醒学生们要做好时间管理。在人生的道路上，你停步不前，但有人却在拼命赶路。也许当你站立的时候，他还在你的后面向前追赶，但当你再一回望时，已看不到他的身影了，因为，他已经跑到你的前面了，需要你来追赶他了。所以，你不能停步，你要不断向前，不断超越。”而如果今天你不走时，那么明天的你就得用跑地往目的地前进了。学习时的苦痛是暂时的，未学到的痛苦是终生的。我们要知道每一个人要是没有付出努力与艰辛的争取过程，便一无所获。

哈佛图书馆墙上的20条训言。短短数语，引发深思，给人启迪。

1.此刻打盹，你将做梦；而此刻学习，你将圆梦。

2.我荒废的今日，正是昨日殒身之人祈求的明日。

3.觉得为时已晚的时候，恰恰是最早的时候。

4.勿将今日之事拖到明日。

5.学习时的苦痛是暂时的，未学到的痛苦是终生的。

6.学习这件事，不是缺乏时间，而是缺乏努力。

7.幸福或许不排名次，但成功必排名次。

8.学习并不是人生的全部。但既然连人生的一部分―――学习也无法征服，还能做什么呢？

9.请享受无法回避的痛苦。

10.只有比别人更早、更勤奋地努力，才能尝到成功的滋味。

11.谁也不能随随便便成功，它来自彻底的自我管理和毅力。

12.时间在流逝。

13.现在流的口水，将成为明天的眼泪。

14.狗一样地学，绅士一样地玩。

15.今天不走，明天要跑。

16.投资未来的人，是忠于现实的人。

17.受教育程度代表收入。

18.一天过完，不会再来。

19.即使现在，对手也不停地翻动书页。

20.没有艰辛，便无所获。

让我们一起努力，成为有智慧的人。

无法挽回

我以为我一直以来所珍惜地那份情谊不会不见，哪知再也找不回了。。。曾经的我以为不需一言一语就能守着它，但原来不是。。。

disappointed of myself

so so disappointed of myself....During secondary school,though i am not the top student in school but at least i still can handle my study and get A for most of the subject.I had gone through one and half year medicine student life,and the sad thing is i cant even get a satisfying result even though i put my effort on it.What wrong to me?I am not hardworking as previous?I am too weak to compete with oth top students in order to survive? Maybe i shld changed my study method?I trying nw....but it make me feel useless by trying others methods too. Maybe i shld be more hardworking than oths(maybe 100x efforts) in order to get the satisfying result i want. Pls ...pls be hardworking and study smartly,shen.

Is anyone in this world are irresponsible and thk of themselve only?

Sometimes i really feel difficulty in breathing to live in such a society.I joined a club in University but i did not feel happy at all. We had our own roles in that club.Of course our jobs too.This week i and a committee in charge of an activity's slide show and video sharing but she went home because this week lesson is not as important as the main subject in view of many students.I can still consider her feeling but then she sms me that she will do the slide show of song sharing part and she already asked another committee to pass me the pendrive.Inside the pendrive, there is the format of the slide and we (i and her) need to change the background only.She said she will email me the song sharing slide to me on the next day.At the end of msg,she asked hw abt the video sharing(need to put in all the photo of the activities done previously into a video form.) Hw do u thk?Sure she is telling indirectly that i need to do the video part.I still can understand because i know sure one of us will do more thg and for me,i stay in campus so i agree to do the video sharing but then hw abt the whole slide?She only said she will email the song sharing slide to me.Hw abt the others part of the slide show?She asked a committee to take format for me then she can just ignore the slide show thg and only do few slide for song sharing slide(only part of the slide show).Ytd i knew that we don't need to do the slide show already because another committee did it for us already because they thk of dun wan give too much thg for us (i and her).I really so appreciate to them because they thk of oths (act i really feel this is our job and they really too nice to us).Then i email her that if possible then adjust the slide a bit(if no need adjust also can).She replied me that that committee already did the slide completely so no need to adjust anythg dy.I replied her that if can then insert the songs to slide show then it is better.Then she haven't replied me yet.She did not even tell me when she back to campus.Do the video sharing which include all the activities spend time too because i need to find song and adjust it in video.And i only asked her to give the complete slide with the songs also very tough for her.For me,if nw i were her and i no need to do the song sharing slide(mean ntg to do=no job at all)because that committee dy did it completely then i will ask what can i help the one who do the video sharing.Is everyone in this world is selfish and irresponsible ?They always hope can run away frm their jobs and on the other hands ,throw the jobs to others who work together with them?I am a person who wan do thg seriously and dun wan my own jobs added on oth ppl's shoulder because i understand all of us have many thg to do.But live in such a realistic world,oth ppl can throw away their responsibility without blame theirselves but they feel comfortable to do it.Anyone can help me?Or tell me am i wrong because i too kira?

depressed

i felt myself so useless....stupid...hope i can be a better person....hw?

无法改变

有时候，观点不一样，不愉快就产生了，越来越深。。。

是时候好好休息

累了就不想再坚持了

越来越累了

我可以相信这一切吗？一次又一次地心痛，失望，令我感觉一切都不踏实，越来越不想坚持下去了。。。。爱没有对与错，我要的只是你的真诚。一切还有得挽回吗？这一刻的我不知道。放手？或许吧？坚持呢？可能吗？不知道，也不想知道。。。。。

要幸福地走下去

现在的你正前往彭亨州参与一个活动，而我在四天后就要考试了。。。所以要努力地温习了。加油！！！！一定要考好。。。考完试后我就会回家乡一个星期而你也是，所以两个星期多都无法见到彼此，会想你的，要好好照顾自己。。。^^我们一定要幸福地手牵着手一直走下去，我相信可以的。。。要为彼此加油

I am totally a failure....

My sister argued v my dad just nw.I knew it...act the main reason is my dad always dont recognise wat she done and always compare her v me.My result is higher than sister n i seldom do against my dad.So,my dad always compare me and my sister.I tell to my dad not to do so but he still dont listen to me but say sth that my sister did not respect him and oths thing .I really hope i can return to the past n prevent today's situation to happen.I knew it is sth wrong in my family education but wat shld i do to solve it?I really dont know hw to do...I am a very weak person in deep.

felt depressed

Why?i felt so worry now because of my parent had a quarrel ...I really dont wan that thing to happen ..i just wan all of my family members stay healty and live happily .When quarrel happened,i cant face it and just felt i am depressed and wan to escape frm that.How can i help to solve this prob?what shld i do ?I really dont know

depressed

I felt depressed now because of quarrel btw my parent.I really wan to escape frm that and i knew i do not brave to face it...

Regret

"di da..di da...di da...three hrs is oredi passed and i am starving now..".I and my friends ordered for delivery McDonald's abt 12 pm today.Since McDonald's will be reopened abt 2 pm today, hence the only thing i can do is waiting for my order to be delivered to me abt 2 pm because i and my friends r very lazy to go out frm hostel.However,my order still have not been delivered to hostel abt three hrs.Finally,my friend made a call to McDonald's."OMG!!!!!They said that we need to order again because of some unknown reason.And the order will be delivered to hostel within 45 min...''(=.=''')...(T.T) If i am not of the reason that i do not want to go out frm hostel, i wont do it again...haizzzz

I am in USM right now

After a tiring orientation week,as a medic or dentist student,we need to go for a camp in kelantan or terengganu.I thought i can have a rest after my tiring orientation week,who knows there is a camp waiting for me to join.Luckily i already passed through it.Actually, it gave me a lot of experience and memory.Although i did not make fren v many students in camp due to i am not a outgoing ppl,i still like that camp.After the camp is finished,i started my lesson on this sunday.For me ,everything is new and i felt blur because i dont know what shld i do after this.However,i just try to ask and survive in USM.Hopefully everything will be fine for me at here.To my fren,hope u all the best in other University.

Scorpio (10/24 - 11/21)
Love: Never close your lips to those whom you have opened your heart.
Career: Now is the time to believe you can succeed, imagine yourself living the life you desire, and it will all happen.
Health: Recharge yourself with a nice vacation.
Wealth: You will need to reserve money for something unforeseen.

Believe myself that i can succeed? Actually starting frm young,i did not hv confident in study and even don't hv the will to get excellent result.During i am studying for form three,i know i will have to sit for PMR.Then, because of that reason,i started to study hard to get the good result.Even though my result is not the top ones, i can say i am quite satisfied v my result.After getting my SPM result,i can't even believe i got excellent result(at least for me). However,i always think that i am only lucky(maybe it really happened in that way-i am only lucky). Say truly,when i am going to usm to interview for medic,i did not think that i will have one day to study at usm and even study medic. I did not have my ambition to be a doctor since i am young.I came across v my secondary classmate.She is an indian and studying form six right now.She said to me that she hv such ambition since she is a kid.She wan to become a doctor.My best friend said to she is more suitable and hv right to become a doctor compared to me.'Ya,she is very interesting in medic and me ...i am given a chance to study medic.And i don't hv any ambition right now.At the same time,my parents told to me that i can just go for a try and nothing is wrong for me to change my course if i really can't handle it. Err....i always think about if i really cannot handle it,then i will waste my time even me parent's money..This is wat i always think about.But,now i wan to give myself a chance to try.Even though i don't know how was my furure,i just go for a try..at least i try it.

My future?

I just accepted a call frm usm and asked me wan to accept or not.Finally, i thought i loss this chance anymore because i log in late to the website yesterday and can't give response to usm after five pm.So,this time i know i should hold it tightly.How was my future?I don't really know it but i know i hv this chance and will my best to do it..+u

Miss a chance at last

After asking some advice frm my senior,i made a decision to go for usm.Unfortunately,i overlooked the time for me to answer usm admission offer.At last, i miss it forever.I am trying to call usm tomoro.Hope they will consider again for my mistakes. I know it is impossible for me to have my second chance. Hwever, after i made my decision clear,i won't miss it again ....

Tiring shopping~~~i'm hesitating

I just received the adminssion result from usm yesterday. I nid to reply it before 5pm on 31 jun. Hence, i am hesitating right now.Should i accept it or reject it? Nobody can help me to make this decision but me. Only myself really know wat i wan to be...wat do i like ?hh.....I can't even know wat is my ambition.....To be a doktor?To be a leaturer?I went to sing k and watch movie-terminator salvation today at jj,bt.tinggi.However, after shopping and on the way to back home, i started to hesitate about the admission result frm usm.....Shen,u should make a decision as soon as possible...